Sunday, July 4, 2010

4th of July

Happy 4th of July! We are so thankful for our country and the freedom we have. We are forever indebted to those that have served to give us that freedom!

We have had a pretty low-key holiday. Although Jack's counts should be on the way up, they are still pretty low. Originally we planned a trip to Houston to visit Ryan's family, but ultimately felt it was too big of a risk. We want to avoid sickness and hospital stays at all costs!

Speaking of the hospital, one of the sweet little boys whose mother I have connected with was admitted to the hospital with a fever Friday afternoon and he is still there. The doctors are afraid that he may have contracted chicken pox while in the ER, plus his older sister has been pretty sick lately so he has been exposed to alot. This sweet boy is ahead of Jack on his treatment plan and he made it so far without a hospital stay--it's not uncommon to have several hospital stays during a cycle of chemo. His mom is a source of inspiration for me and I know her heart is hurting right now. Please visit her blog here and pray for quick healing!

Thankfully, we have been able to get the boys out a little and enjoy some of the 4th of July festivities around here. We have just stayed away from the people :)

{4th of July Parade}

{Bubbles while waiting}


{Happy boy}

{Why are we leaving so late?!? Oh yeah, to go see the fires!}

{Jack: what did Mommy just give me?? Brayden: plotting his escape}

{Jack: still not sure. Brayden: success!}

{Brayden did NOT want to let go of his Daddy}

{Check out his grip!}


{Jack ended up loving the flags and has played with them all day}

I feel like I have been on a rollercoaster lately. Some days I feel upbeat, some I feel like I've been hit with a hammer.

I constantly think that when I am having a good day that I shouldn't be. I know, logically, that I can't be sad 24/7. Laughing is getting easier and comes now without guilt.

God has given me some peace lately and I have not been staying up all night worrying. Rather, lately I just don't think about it too much unless I'm forced to. Kinda of like selective reality-it's only real if I let it be. Healthy? Probably not. Denier and avoider? That's me!

I am struggling right now with discipline. Who wants to put a child who just endured chemo in time-out??! Not me! But, when he pelts his baby brother with a pillow or tries to pull him across the room by the legs, you do what you gotta do. I know we need to maintain our rules in the middle of all of this chaos, and so far it hasn't been too hard. My heart just hurts more now when I have to discipline him.

Thankfully Jackson is handling everything so well. He is my rock. The other day after chemo I was having a rough time and I was reading some sweet words from a family member and I just couldn't stop the tears from coming. Jack came running over to me and said "It's ok Mommy, it's just a seahorse!!" He was watching a cartoon about the ocean and he thought I was afraid of the seahorse. Sweet little boy.

Round 7 is Tuesday-the oncology office is closed for the holiday tomorrow. I feel confident that his numbers will be high enough for treatment since they did not get as low as last time, but prayers for high numbers are still appreciated! I am hoping they are REALLY high. I would love to take that boy to the zoo!



  1. Happy Fourth of July to You and Your Family!
    Hugs to ALL of you!

  2. Glad y'all were able to get out some on the 4th!

  3. Go Jackson.
    Sending lots of positive thoughts for high numbers for you, and a good day for your Mummy.

  4. Great family picture!!
    I hope everything went well today!
    Talk to you soon <3



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